On this Valentine’s Day, it seems fitting to share A Love Story… (it’s only 2 minutes, make sure to watch until the end before reading 😉 )
For years I’ve imagined how I’d write this post. I’d share with the world how long I’d been dreaming about this day. How wanted and loved this first baby and first grandchild is. How incredibly grateful and humbled I am to finally become a mother. How I’ve planned the nursery design in every home I’ve lived in for the past 10 years, hoping each would be the one I’d get to bring my baby home to.
For the past 10 years I’ve waited patiently, watching cousins and friends and strangers excitedly announce their news on social media. I watched those babies grow up into big brothers and sisters and sent my congratulations as their families grew.
Most of you reading this will share in our happiness, but for some it will be another painful blow. This post is for you.
￼I know what it’s like to watch others celebrate something you want so desperately. I understand the sinking feeling of waking up to yet another Mother’s Day. I still remember those first cramps coming on every month like stabbing knives, robbing me of another chance. I lost a marriage within the hopelessness, and I didn’t know how I could survive either.
Fast forward nearly four years after hitting rock bottom, and everything has changed. I’d relive every moment of heartache, all the years “wasted” to be where I am now.
Back then I didn’t understand—I could have never imagined the detour my life would take to lead me here. This is how and when it was meant to happen.
While it may be a decade later than planned, I wouldn’t change this timing for the world. At nearly 34 years in, I feel like life is just beginning. There is so much more of the story to write… for all of us, no matter where we are in our journey.
For those of you struggling, know that one day, there will be a moment where you stop and realize “Aha… so this is why everything happened as it did… it all makes sense now.” I’m here on the other side, telling you that everything will be okay. In fact, better than okay—even better than what you’ve planned.
The pain you feel now doesn’t compare to the joy that is coming. Trust the timing of your life.
Sending a little extra love to the world today,
Congrats. I haven’t visited your blog in quite a while, but today I did and read this month old post and I really needed the reminder to “trust the timing of your life.”
What a beautiful video. Your skills and storytelling continue to amaze me; y.u most definitely have a gift. Congratulations to the two of you.
Kristen Eff says
Your storytelling skills brought me to tears. I thought I knew what love was until I had a kid; It’s terrifying how much I love her! It sounds like you have a wealth of friends and family who have been through this process and can lend some advice (and baby gear?) which is helpful with baby #1. My greatest regrets during the first year were not taking a breastfeeding class (why is it so hard?!) and not getting a comfortable reclining rocking chair until year 1. Wishing you the smoothest of pregnancies!!!
Jenna Sue says
Thank you so much, Kristen! I appreciate the kind words and will definitely take your advice to heart 🙂
I literally cried when I saw this! I am so happy for you! I know this sounds “stalkerish” but I have followed you since that first picture of the plane wing, your trip alone, then meeting your love and your new adventure. Again not mean to sound creepy but I kind of picture you as the daughter I never had. So when I read this, I just couldn’t be happier for you. I will pray for a healthy pregnancy, delivery and bouncing baby!
Jenna Sue says
Aww that is so sweet of you to say, Michele! Thank you for sticking around all these years — your support means the world to me! Can’t wait to experience this next (and best) chapter <3
D Gregg says
So happy for you two. I had my first at 36…he is the light of my life!
Nancy Lambert says
Congratulations!!! I am so very happy for you both…
Karen Bunch says
Congratulations! I’m so happy for you and your sweet husband.
You are so thoughtful to offer your words of encouragement to those who have longed to be pregnant.
Best to you!
The first time I saw the two of you together, I thought “soulmates.” So happy for yall!
Having followed you for a while now on your journey, I feel like an honorary aunt and I am beaming with pride for you and Lucas! Wishing you a happy and safe pregnancy and I know we will get to see lots of that nursery! Sending lots of love your way Jenna!!
CONGRATULATIONS Jenna and Lucas! I am thrilled for you both and look forward to seeing the nursery!
Shelly Smith says
If this was a movie trailer for an upcoming film, I’d pay money to see it in the theater, and I almost never do that. Nothing is ever wasted. It shapes who we are and grow into. Continue to enjoy your journey. You are right where you need to be. Congratulations!
What a sweet Valentine’s post! Congratulations to you two! I was 39 when i became pregnanat with our first child as we awaited the arrival of our two adopted children from an orphanage in the Soviet Union. Within one week my husband, who was at the orphanage, was told he would not be able to bring our boys home and I was alone in an ER room and told that I had miscarried. Fast forward 6 months, we welcomed our boys, all three, into our home. The ER doctor was wrong…I gave birth to a healthy baby boy and our adopted boys arrived 3 weeks later. You are so right. Life turns out the way it should.
Jenna Sue says
Oh wow, what a scare Jamie! So happy it all worked out for you <3 <3