In two days I’ll be on a plane to Asia and life will never be the same. I’ve been keeping a secret from you guys that I haven’t been able to share until now.
Brad and I have separated. He’s been living in Florida since June and I bought a one way ticket to Bangkok to leave this life behind and start over. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make—one I’ve struggled with for years. But all you saw on this blog was a facade of a seemingly happy, perfect life. And it was, on paper—I had almost everything I’d ever wanted and dreamed about. So why couldn’t I be happy?
I’ve debated how much to open up and share with the world. This is just a DIY blog, everyone only wants to see pretty pictures and tutorials, right? For those of you in that camp, I apologize for the sudden turn of events, and no hard feelings if you want to move on. I have no idea what will become of this blog, because my entire life is up in the air right now. For the very first time I have no plans for the future. I’ll be landing in Bangkok with nothing but a backpack and my camera, no itinerary or familiar faces. Hoping a solo trek across Southeast Asia will allow me to find clarity and discover myself, on my own, without any crutches to fall back on.
A year ago I would have been terrified of the idea. But I’ve been going through a profound metamorphosis for months. The layers of my cocoon have been peeling away and Thailand is the last phase where I can finally break free and spread my wings, seeing the world through completely different eyes. Every fiber of my being is pulling in this direction. I’m not scared at all. This is the new Jenna Sue.
I’ve been journaling and documenting this entire process, feeling compelled to record every thought and emotion. It’s the most defining era in my life and I don’t want to forget a single moment. My goal is to be as raw and honest as possible throughout my backpacking journey while working through this personal transformation and finding real meaning in life. I know there are so many others out there with similar feelings but they’re too afraid/unsure/unaware to voice them… and I truly hope you continue to read this blog as I share more of my story, and find value and inspiration in the path I chose.
You are the designer of your destiny. You are the author. You write the story. The pen is in your hand, and the outcome is whatever you choose.
My next post will be live from Thailand. I hope to have you on board with me and sincerely appreciate every uplifting word and thought sent my way. Here’s to a brave new life…
christy says
best of luck to you on your new adventure. I will miss the diy stuff – I adore your style! But…on to bigger and better things.
Lindsey says
I admire your courage. Life is too short to be unhappy. I hope you have an amazing adventure and get closer to finding your true destiny. Here’s to new beginnings! XO
Ann O'Dea says
Best wishes on this journey! I look forward to reading about it!!!!
Ann
A Erlandson says
Oh, Jenna . I am so sorry to hear about your separation. Change is so hard. I commend you for taking such a bold step. Best of luck on your adventure.
Much love to you,
A
Sasha says
Hi Jenna,
I’ve been following you for a long time now, but have only commented a few times over the years. It sounds like the journey of a lifetime, I’m sorry to hear of the process that has gone before it (am really not sure what to say, I wish you all the best). From your post I gather you’ll be taking us along and I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate that.
All the best for future and safe travels.
Xoxo Sasha
Nicole in VA says
Stretch your wings and fly, Jenna Sue. I look forward to seeing Thailand through your eyes. Your photos are always so beautiful.
Emily says
Good luck with your travels! It will be amazing and life changing.
Cami says
Wow, not exactly what I thought your announcement would be. Best of luck on your new adventure, I am in awe of your courage and spirit. I pray you find what you are looking for, and enjoy the journey.
I do have to ask though…..what is going to happen to your house?
Erin says
Long time follower and first time commenter.
I’m not religious but my mom used to have this sign in her bathroom that read “the Lord never gives us more than we can bear.” This little reminder has gotten me through some really rough patches in life. Embrace the change and embrace the light. A new tomorrow is on the horizon. Just be you.
Sonya says
Jenna, big hugs to you for making a decision that is right for you and sharing it with your readers. I hope you find yourself on your journey and come back to the US when you are ready, if that is what you decide, refreshed and a changed person. <3 <3 <3
Paula says
Wow- so sorry for your breakup but it sounds like you have many exciting adventures planned. Can’t wait to read and live vicariously thru you. Keep your head high!
Emily says
I’m so sorry that you’ve been going through this difficult time. I hope Thailand is absolutely amazing, and everything you need. Please continue to update us on everything! You’ve been one of my absolute favorites for years and I only want the BEST for you.
Sarah says
Best wishes to you, Jenna! Will you be selling your house in CA or keeping it?
Caro says
You’ve made the first step. You will be fine. Hugs.
AlisonG says
Wow and brave it is. The best of luck to you and finding happiness in your new life.
mikaela says
Oh Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about you and Brad but yet at the same time I’m excited for your new big adventure. I admire your bravery! I hope you continue to blog, even if it looks very different, and wish you all the best as you head on this new journey.
Paula Martinez says
Jenna, i’m so sorry to hear about your separation. It can be very overwhelming and heart crushing. You are a strong and courageous women whom I’ve grown to admire. Your blog has given me such hope and ideas so wonderful you should get a reward! I actually live my life thru your postings and wish I could be so creative and beautiful as you are. I wish you the best of luck and yes – happiness will come again to you. You have a wonderful gift that shines.