In two days I’ll be on a plane to Asia and life will never be the same. I’ve been keeping a secret from you guys that I haven’t been able to share until now.
Brad and I have separated. He’s been living in Florida since June and I bought a one way ticket to Bangkok to leave this life behind and start over. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make—one I’ve struggled with for years. But all you saw on this blog was a facade of a seemingly happy, perfect life. And it was, on paper—I had almost everything I’d ever wanted and dreamed about. So why couldn’t I be happy?
I’ve debated how much to open up and share with the world. This is just a DIY blog, everyone only wants to see pretty pictures and tutorials, right? For those of you in that camp, I apologize for the sudden turn of events, and no hard feelings if you want to move on. I have no idea what will become of this blog, because my entire life is up in the air right now. For the very first time I have no plans for the future. I’ll be landing in Bangkok with nothing but a backpack and my camera, no itinerary or familiar faces. Hoping a solo trek across Southeast Asia will allow me to find clarity and discover myself, on my own, without any crutches to fall back on.
A year ago I would have been terrified of the idea. But I’ve been going through a profound metamorphosis for months. The layers of my cocoon have been peeling away and Thailand is the last phase where I can finally break free and spread my wings, seeing the world through completely different eyes. Every fiber of my being is pulling in this direction. I’m not scared at all. This is the new Jenna Sue.
I’ve been journaling and documenting this entire process, feeling compelled to record every thought and emotion. It’s the most defining era in my life and I don’t want to forget a single moment. My goal is to be as raw and honest as possible throughout my backpacking journey while working through this personal transformation and finding real meaning in life. I know there are so many others out there with similar feelings but they’re too afraid/unsure/unaware to voice them… and I truly hope you continue to read this blog as I share more of my story, and find value and inspiration in the path I chose.
You are the designer of your destiny. You are the author. You write the story. The pen is in your hand, and the outcome is whatever you choose.
My next post will be live from Thailand. I hope to have you on board with me and sincerely appreciate every uplifting word and thought sent my way. Here’s to a brave new life…
Brenda Kula-Pruitt says
One of my contributors from my other blog, The Women’s Room, sent me here. I want you to know that, through a fluke, in 2011 my whole life was laid bare for the world to read about. I thought the world had ended. I also am a decor and garden blog. Now I tell the raw truth. Sometimes it’s hard. Some people can’t take it. But it also helps the many women who write to me to thank me for being honest. I’m hoping there will be a change in Blog Land, and all the “pretty little pictures on the wall” will take a backseat to real life. I admire you and will now follow you on your journey. I have Aspergers, so can’t see myself doing what you’re doing, and I’m now in my fifties, but boy, do I commend you for doing it!
Brenda
Amy b says
Best of luck! I’ve been divorced and starting over…hard but invigorating…spending time finding me and crafting a new life was key because now happier than ever before! You go girl! I will also continue to follow and send good thoughts your way!
Debra says
Courage dear friend. Some of us are also on the precipice of making similar journeys. You will be kept in thought and prayer. Be very careful in your new surroundings and again, courage.
Love going out to you.
Deb
Bonnie says
WOW
Last Minute Lynn says
Godspeed and warm wishes.
Sharon says
Holy shit! You are brave! And here I was certain you were going to tell us you were pregnant. Good luck and of course we’ll keep reading!
Norma says
Best wishes on your new journey, hope this new chapter brings you joy and inner peace. I’ve been a long time reader but first time I comment. You’ve accomplished so much in terms of your house and your business, you are a determined person so I am sure that, when you are ready, you will accomplish new goals in this new adventure. For now, just enjoy! Safe travels and take care!
Katherine says
I was searching for a good upbeat quote to give you to help you on your way on your new adventure. My favourite at the moment is Paulo Coelho, but to be honest all of his quotes would be apt. I really wish you good luck, and so sorry for all the pain you’ve had to go through to get to this point. xx
Sherri says
Wow- going to Thailand and not even frightened! Now since I’m a God’s girl that tells me that the God has a plan for you that is so undeniable that you are embracing it with all of your heart. I commented the other day that I thought you were moving on, and so you are. Just as you have put all of your energy into DIYing for so many years, you will now be able to focus on self-discovery. I could see where being consumed by all the projects to make your home perfect can only distract you from self-realization for so long. Then you have to go outside of that familiar realm and “spread your wings.” I too am curious about what becomes of your house, your cats, and your possessions. But it’s obvious you have made peace with all of that and are well on your way for the next chapter in this journey called life. I am a fan, so I will be following along for that next chapter…. And may the Lord bless you and keep you. Sherri
Hally says
What an amazing plan you’ve made for yourself! I’ve only found your blog recently, probably about 30 days ago, but I admire every project and every design you’ve accomplished. You have beautiful vision, and I can only image how that will translate and transform with your new surrounds and the path you’ve chosen for the new Jenna Sue.
Good luck in your journey. You are doing something some of us only dream about!!
Beth says
Best Wishes on this new chapter of your life and great adventure ahead, looking forward to reading about it along the way! Safe Travels!
Karen says
Hugs. On to your next great adventure! Can’t wait to follow.
pri says
I’m a regular reader of your blog, but first time commenter. So sorry to hear about your separation, but being someone who’s gone thru’ this before, things will def. get better for you. You are an extremely talented person, who isn’t afraid to take risks and work hard, so nothing but the best awaits you.
Good luck, and know that we readers are always here for you.
Kristy says
I applaud you for your bravery and transparency with such a challenging ordeal. Blogs have the tendency to sugar-coat everything, so to the readers all appears perfect. There is pressure to have it all together and frustration from knowing that you’re not presenting an honest image. While I cannot imagine the turmoil you have been going through these past few months, I hope that you feel freedom and relief from your decision to share your struggle, as well as a renewed excitement for the adventure that lies ahead. Whatever the future holds, please know that you have a tremendous amount of love and support from your loyal readers, myself included. Best of luck on this journey of a lifetime!
A Speckled Trout says
You do know there was a wildly 😉 popular book about a backpacker and her adventures on the trail?? All the best to you and write it all down. These sorts of adventures tend to take on a fabulous life of their own.