In two days I’ll be on a plane to Asia and life will never be the same. I’ve been keeping a secret from you guys that I haven’t been able to share until now.
Brad and I have separated. He’s been living in Florida since June and I bought a one way ticket to Bangkok to leave this life behind and start over. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make—one I’ve struggled with for years. But all you saw on this blog was a facade of a seemingly happy, perfect life. And it was, on paper—I had almost everything I’d ever wanted and dreamed about. So why couldn’t I be happy?
I’ve debated how much to open up and share with the world. This is just a DIY blog, everyone only wants to see pretty pictures and tutorials, right? For those of you in that camp, I apologize for the sudden turn of events, and no hard feelings if you want to move on. I have no idea what will become of this blog, because my entire life is up in the air right now. For the very first time I have no plans for the future. I’ll be landing in Bangkok with nothing but a backpack and my camera, no itinerary or familiar faces. Hoping a solo trek across Southeast Asia will allow me to find clarity and discover myself, on my own, without any crutches to fall back on.
A year ago I would have been terrified of the idea. But I’ve been going through a profound metamorphosis for months. The layers of my cocoon have been peeling away and Thailand is the last phase where I can finally break free and spread my wings, seeing the world through completely different eyes. Every fiber of my being is pulling in this direction. I’m not scared at all. This is the new Jenna Sue.
I’ve been journaling and documenting this entire process, feeling compelled to record every thought and emotion. It’s the most defining era in my life and I don’t want to forget a single moment. My goal is to be as raw and honest as possible throughout my backpacking journey while working through this personal transformation and finding real meaning in life. I know there are so many others out there with similar feelings but they’re too afraid/unsure/unaware to voice them… and I truly hope you continue to read this blog as I share more of my story, and find value and inspiration in the path I chose.
You are the designer of your destiny. You are the author. You write the story. The pen is in your hand, and the outcome is whatever you choose.
My next post will be live from Thailand. I hope to have you on board with me and sincerely appreciate every uplifting word and thought sent my way. Here’s to a brave new life…
Relle says
Hon, you are living your truth and that takes courage and guts. Have an awesome time in Thailand. Keep listening to your heart and it will tell you what you need. I think too often we don’t listen to our inner voice, because it is easier or safer we think to stay. I have been on your journey and I know you will find what your looking for. I decided i wanted love like the book The Notebook and was determined to find it and I did. It is worth the wait, worth living through the break up of my first marriage, worth finding my truth and being authentically me. Always remember you are stronger than you think, braver than you know and more beautiful than you imagine. We will all be cheering you on. Hugs and much love
Kris tin says
long time follower- never commented. Strength to you as you discover……it will be good it will be sad……but you will come out a stronger and sure and true to what you want. I’ll keep reading and thinking about your adventures…. And commenting constantly….well Jenna sue did this….. And there are enough projects to keep me busy for a good while
Allison says
Jenna,
I have admired your determination and resourcefulness coupled with a talented eye for design. Thank you for providing inspiration and practical tutorials over the years. Wishing you a safe and productive adventure!
JC says
Long time follower. I had to re-read your post a couple of times to make sure I was reading it right. You’re right, no one sees and knows your personal struggles. It’s so easy to assume everything is peachy.
I just want to wish you safe travels as you begin your healing process. Enjoy the culture and the people. Do what YOU want to do.
Can’t wait to follow you on this new adventure. Hang in there, we’re rooting for you.
rale says
So sorry jenna to hear of your trials God loves You !im sure of this,and if u havnt yet ,give him a chance to show you how his mercies are new every morning. And that he died for you that you might live eternally! This world and all its struggles are bound to get us down for even when we are on the top it wont last forever,but Jesus love is forever. And as a daughter of the King i am so thankful that at the end of the day mo,matter what i have peace sweet peace,best wishes jenna sue i hope u will also find peace on your adventure to Thailand!
Kelsey says
You are such an inspiration! Praying for healing as you work through this. Looking forward to your future posts!
Diva Kreszl says
Hoping your grand adventure is all you hope it to be and that you find yourself in the journey, no matter how amicable the loss of a relationship is always difficult so be kind to yourself. Immerse yourself in knew experiences, explore new vistas and cherish the small magical moments. Looking forward to seeing photos of your journey as you post.
Christina D says
Jenna,
I’m very sorry to hear about your separation. I read your post early this morning and its been with me all day. I feel like a friend that has been searching for the right words to say. I am amazed at how incredibly brave you are. This couldn’t have been an easy post to write and then post for the world to see. But it sounds like you are happy with your decisions and the path you are setting out on and I am happy and excited for you as well. Thank you for the inspiration you have given me to update my home, your beautiful gray kitchen cabinets are the reason both my bathroom vanities are now gray! You have also inspired me to try my hand in blog writing as well. I also recently ordered a print of my wedding vows from your Etsy shop which I love! Wishing you the best of luck and safe travels. I think amazing things are in store for you. Looking forward to your posts from Thailand.
p.s. One of my fave LOTR quotes. Just perfect.
Jenna says
Jenna, so sorry to hear about you and Brad. You are so brave and will come out the other end of this a stronger woman.
Barbara H. says
Transformation – isn’t that really what life is all about? Thank you for bringing me this gift of realization – had I not been trying to find the best way to express support for you I might night have clarified that thought for myself. Stay safe, listening to your body and intuition as you continue your journey towards internal peace, self-knowledge and soul tranquility. Stay grounded as you learn to flutter your wings into a new life.
catherine says
Good luck and Best whishes
And your two lovely cats ?
Deborah says
Jenna, I’ve been following since Florida and I have bought a few items from your site. Very talented lady that you are can’t wait to see what you post about your adventures overseas. You are always the FIRST blog I go to (believe me I follow a bunch) I’m not going to lie, I sure will miss all your great DIY projects. But I’m looking forward to seeing what’s next. REmember when you get older you won’t regret the things you did do, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do. Good Luck Jenna and PLEASE be careful
Marijean says
Sorry to hear about your troubles, but I wish you nothing but the best in your new adventure. I have enjoyed your blog and the beautiful pictures of your home you have shared. Hope to hear more from you in the future.
Victoria Hopkins says
You are a very brave woman Jenna Sue. I haven’t been following your blog for long but I have read so many of your old posts and have been so inspired by your creativity.
If you ever find your self in Sydney Australia as part of your travelling adventure I’d be happy to put you up for a few days!
Wishing you all the best.
Victoria x
https://vintagegirl1.blogspot.com.au/
Crystal Yoschak says
Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear this. I’m a huge fan of your blog and love your designs. I’m sad to see the designer side of you to be going (or put away for a while). I hope new adventure helps you find that missing piece.