In two days I’ll be on a plane to Asia and life will never be the same. I’ve been keeping a secret from you guys that I haven’t been able to share until now.
Brad and I have separated. He’s been living in Florida since June and I bought a one way ticket to Bangkok to leave this life behind and start over. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make—one I’ve struggled with for years. But all you saw on this blog was a facade of a seemingly happy, perfect life. And it was, on paper—I had almost everything I’d ever wanted and dreamed about. So why couldn’t I be happy?
I’ve debated how much to open up and share with the world. This is just a DIY blog, everyone only wants to see pretty pictures and tutorials, right? For those of you in that camp, I apologize for the sudden turn of events, and no hard feelings if you want to move on. I have no idea what will become of this blog, because my entire life is up in the air right now. For the very first time I have no plans for the future. I’ll be landing in Bangkok with nothing but a backpack and my camera, no itinerary or familiar faces. Hoping a solo trek across Southeast Asia will allow me to find clarity and discover myself, on my own, without any crutches to fall back on.
A year ago I would have been terrified of the idea. But I’ve been going through a profound metamorphosis for months. The layers of my cocoon have been peeling away and Thailand is the last phase where I can finally break free and spread my wings, seeing the world through completely different eyes. Every fiber of my being is pulling in this direction. I’m not scared at all. This is the new Jenna Sue.
I’ve been journaling and documenting this entire process, feeling compelled to record every thought and emotion. It’s the most defining era in my life and I don’t want to forget a single moment. My goal is to be as raw and honest as possible throughout my backpacking journey while working through this personal transformation and finding real meaning in life. I know there are so many others out there with similar feelings but they’re too afraid/unsure/unaware to voice them… and I truly hope you continue to read this blog as I share more of my story, and find value and inspiration in the path I chose.
You are the designer of your destiny. You are the author. You write the story. The pen is in your hand, and the outcome is whatever you choose.
My next post will be live from Thailand. I hope to have you on board with me and sincerely appreciate every uplifting word and thought sent my way. Here’s to a brave new life…
Kathy Bayly says
I can imagine this a hard time for you – we all go through those times but, boy, do I admire your spunk! The Sierra Foothills and our Lkae tulloch family are going to miss you while you embark on the polar opposite of a small town life. Maybe, in the end, you will prefer the ‘hometown’ but I have a feeling there are big things in store for you no matter where you are. You’ll certainly grow from this new experience – and I’ll bet your design will too. We have kids your age, though, so I’m sure your parents are doing some nail-biting and I will be thinking of them too. Stay safe, seek and find, and we look foraward to hearing about the adventure. God Bless!
tessa says
You continue to be an inspiration to me. Follow your heart. Stay strong and enjoy the journey. Il
Julie Ann Feuling says
Only today did I stumble onto your site while thinking about making over my ugly interior doors. Your August 14th post was the first I’ve read from you and it gave me a hitch in my heart. Last year I divorced after finding out my husband had been leading a double life the entire 15 years we were together. Strange sounds of utter despair came from me and many pillow cases were ruined as I dealt with the pain and fear. But this year I feel like I’ve been released from prison and I’m experiencing the best year of my life at 52! I’m so excited for you and proud of this stranger I don’t even know, yet share this unspoken bond with–the bond of breaking free and starting over. I’m looking forward to reading about your adventures as you continue to explore and create a meaningful life.
Shelly says
Jenna not only do I know this is going to be an amazing adventure for you and life happens but it leads us where we are meant to be. Reading these comments from people and seeing the support makes me tear up. One because you are amazing and a wonderful soul and it’s great to see the love flowing your way. Also I love all the Diy projects and your also my friend but I am beyond looking forward to reading your internal journey and also your adventure. I am beyond excited to see what the future holds and what the Jenna I know who is capable and intelligent can accomplish! You got this girl! I’m in your corner supporting you all the way!!!!!
KJ says
I am a day late and a dollar short, but…
I know you will find the right path, whatever it is. And I will keep you in my RSS feed, because I like what you have done so far. Best of luck to you.
Cara says
Keep us close! We are with you every step of the way. Remember: life is a wonderful adventure! You and Brad will both grow and flourish in time. Take it one day at a time. Big hugs!
Kaye says
I’m also a long time reader but have never commented before. I love your blog and you have given me so much inspiration . I’m looking forward to reading about your adventures in Thailand and wish you all the best. Go girl!!
Kim B. says
Good luck to you Jenna. This really feels like you are doing the right thing. I’m also put in mind of a certain Elizabeth Gilbert, as someone mentioned in an earlier comment or two. I’m sorry for the heartache that brought you to this place, but glad for the bravery and courage and hope that empowers you to take this leap. As they say here in France, Bon Courage!!!
Joc Young says
You are so amazing and brave. Its been so lovely looking at your wonderful transformations of your Florida house and now your California house. I watch every post to see the clever things you do and truth be told steal a few ideas! I am sad you will not be finishing your fabulous house, but hope you go on this amazing journey and find the joy and happiness you have been missing. Thailand is a beautiful country full of the most kind hearted loving people, I know they will embrace you. Hire a moped and explore the island of phuket, so many beautiful beaches around every corner. If you decide to pop down to Australia youll find even funnie,r nicer people with even nicer beaches! I wish you all the best and hope you have the most incredible adventure……..a part of me wishes I could so exactly what you are doing.
Kara says
I’ve found so much inspiration, design-wise, in your blog though this may be the first time I’ll comment. I’m sorry to hear your suffering. If it gives you any solace or peace, you will be in my prayers.
Cristina says
Jenna, my heart goes out to you. <3 I wish you all the best in Thailand – what an exciting adventure! I absolutely admire your bravery, and I hope that we continue to see your journey. Lots of hugs from a hop, skip and a county over. 🙂
De says
Psalm 86:11 “Teach me your way, O Lord, that I may walk in your truth.”
Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
Praying you find peace and truth in Jesus…the true Prince of Peace.
Jessica says
WOW! I bookmarked your blog about a week ago (via some Pinterest thing) and just started reading today. What a great post to read for my first visit! I am so much more inspired by you and your vulnerability to share with your readers is very inspiring. Can’t wait to read your next post from Thailand!
Sandra P says
Sorry that you had to go through such a difficult time. You are obviously a brave, talented, and beautiful girl. You will be ok, even if it doesn’t feel like it now. So proud that you decided to go on this journey! Soak it all in and share if you can! Best wishes!
Mindy says
Jenna- you are SO brave. My heart goes out to you as I got divorced last year and am going through some major soul searching to find happiness. Just remember that the hard times pass. I’m so happy for you that you are listening to your heart and are doing what you need to do. Best of luck to you.